Well this weekend sucked and went by very fast. I have been sick for the last 4 days, which makes this the third time that I have been sick this month. As much as I wanted to do absolutely nothing on my days off being sick, I knew that wasn’t possible. On top of it all my Brother got food poisoning which also sucked. I constantly still had to be on my toes to make sure things were taken care of.
Luckily I did get a break and started playing a new computer game. It felt nice to escape for a little bit but I felt my Brother judging me the whole time. Eventually I just escaped to my room, which I think I may do more of. I just wish I liked my room but it smells like a dying cat. Even though I scoop every day and constantly clean up her throw up, it still smells horrible.
Fuck I just want my own place.
My son will be here in 5 days. I am excited and dreadful at the same time. I want to see him but dread what negativity he may witness from my Brother and niece. I just want it to be a positive experience for him. I just don’t know what to do. My thought was getting a hotel room but my Brother was offended by that but oh how nice it would be, to be away from my Brother for one night, just to breathe.