Well I’m having a little bit of trouble. I really miss my son. I even put on cartoons everyday to make me feel like he’s here. I will see him in July but it seems so far away. I knew this was going to be hard. I’m sad I wont be with him on Mother’s day too.
Well I took all my medications and put them in a bag and my brother took a brick and crushed them all and buried the remnants in the ground. It was satisfying to watch. I’m on one medication now and I stopped it today. So as of today I’m medication free. I’m so done with doctors over medicating me. I’m ready to me again and I’m taking natural remedies for my depression when needed. I can’t believe I was on 14 medications. How the hell did I function?…..oh right I barely was functioning.
Things are going pretty well here in Washington. I miss my son very much but ill be seeing him soon. I’ll also see my cat soon. I miss them both. It will be nice spending the summer with my son. I know I’m not being a full time mom like I should be but hopefully his Father will move up here and then I can be more there for my son.
My next goal is to lose all this weight. I gained so much from all those medications. I weigh as much as I did when I was 9 months pregnant. It’s tough carrying all this weight around. I’ll be fasting soon to help cleanse my system.