Well I can’t sleep. It’s getting close to August 31st. Which is the anniversary of my best friends death. Usually I take a drive up to Julian but I can’t drive because of my ECT treatments. My boyfriend has not been very nice to me lately but hes trying to make up for it. He doesn’t like it when I’m on the computer. Its my hobby though, I do my art work on it. He also doesn’t like that I am spending time with other people that I haven’t spent time with in years. I don’t like being told what to do or who I can or can’t hang out with. This will only push me away.