What Have I Become

What have I become?  Very few like me and I know it’s because I don’t like myself.  The more pain I suffer with this disease, the more isolated I become.  I’m tired of all the medications and injections.  My beauty is gone.  My energy is gone.  I can’t even create new art work, just mess around with my old stuff.  I just want to feel normal again.  I want to keep up with my 6 year old son.  I want to make it to work every day.  I want a day without pain for once. That’s all I want