Well it’s been a while since I have blogged. I am having a really hard time right now. I haven’t been to work in a month. I have been feeling sick and depressed. I’m so tired of all these medications, I think they are making me sick. I feel dizzy and I have hot and cold sweats all the time. I’m nauseous and I don’t want to eat. I have started losing weight which I guess is good but I didn’t want to lose it like this.
I have to go back to work on Monday to talk to my boss. I’m scared I’m going to lose my job. I have missed so much work in the last year from being sick. I don’t know what I’m going to do, how I’m going to support my son. I’m so scared. Granted I hate my job and maybe it’s time I find something different but I have been there so long. My anxiety is through the roof. I also have the stress of bills and taxes. I just want to hide in a closet some where and scream. I want to cry but I’m on so many meds that I can’t.