I’m Scared

Well it’s been a while since I have blogged.  I am having a really hard time right now.   I haven’t been to work in a month.  I have been feeling sick and depressed.  I’m so tired of all these medications, I think they are making me sick.  I feel dizzy and I have hot and cold sweats all the time.  I’m nauseous and I don’t want to eat.  I have started losing weight which I guess is good but I didn’t want to lose it like this.

I have to go back to work on Monday to talk to my boss.  I’m scared I’m going to lose my job.  I have missed so much work in the last year from being sick.  I don’t know what I’m going to do, how I’m going to support my son.  I’m so scared.  Granted I hate my job and maybe it’s time I find something different but I have been there so long.  My anxiety is through the roof.  I also have the stress of bills and taxes.  I just want to hide in a closet some where and scream.   I  want to cry but I’m on so many meds that I can’t.