Update On My Depression

It’s been a while since I talked about my mental health.  The meds I’m on seem to be working but the weight gain is out of control.  My psychiatrist put me on a mood stabilizer to help with the weight gain but I have yet to see results.  Over all I think I’m doing better.  My anxiety has been better, which is good.


Each Day is a Struggle

Well its been a while since I have blogged.  The weather is changing and so is my pain. The stiffness and the pain in my hips and spine is almost unbearable.  I keep making it to work every day though.  It’s definitely a struggle.  I’m thinking about taking steroids and Vicodin again to get through the pain.  Ibuprofen just doesn’t cut it.

The holidays are coming up.  I’m excited and stressed at the same time.  My family will be meeting my boy friends family for the first time.  I’m sure it will go well.   I hope it all works out.  I just want everyone to have a good time and eat good food.

I haven’t been able to draw lately but my art will be published in a book and my art will be displayed in a Wine Bar.  I wish I could draw but I’m so tired from the pain that I can’t focus.

My son is doing good.  He is still having some behavior problems at school but overall he is doing well.


Well I am doing better mentally. It looks like the change of meds have finally started working.  I am sick and tired of all the meds though. I take in a cocktail of 8 different medications a day.  My pain has been a little better but I still have pain in my hips and spine.  The cold weather has really messed me up pain wise.  I’ve been dwelling on the fact that I am so over weight.  The meds have caused me to gain a bunch of weight.  Its really affecting my self esteem and  way of life.  I really need to do something about it.


The weather is changing which means my arthritic pain is going to get worse.  I really can’t afford to miss work from my pain.  I have a ton of bills that i need to catch up on. I feel like I’m drowning.  I think i may have to consolidate soon.  On a good note, my art is getting published in a book.  I hope I get good reviews from it. I wish I could just quit my job and focus on my art. I feel like my job is killing me sometimes.